Monthly Archives: January 2013

Hawks messages

Heading into town yesterday, I saw a hawk, wings spread far, gliding on a thermal, being harried by three crows. Hawk seemed unconcerned by the circling black birds and kept himself fully spread, gliding at the same altitude – not trying to evade or climb higher – looking like he was out for an afternoon flight.

Before when I saw crows harrying a hawk, I was about to head off on a road trip and passed two cops (and there were two crows). This time I didn’t see any police so I wondered further on what this particular sign to me might reveal to me.

Keep confident in your own abilities, fly higher then that which might harrass you – whether they be problems, bills, harrassing people or whatever those “attacks” might be. Fortitude, powered by a belief in your own abilities will get me pass whatever comes to trouble me.


Driving back into town on another day, we saw a young hawk, swoop down and successfully pounce on some prey. Yet another day this week, Grenwinae saw Hawk at the side of the road, gleefully ripping into some sort of prey; majestic and powerful.

Go after what you want with focus and strike accurately for success. Access my aggression and arrogance in my abilities to fuel my intention to hit my target.

Hawk brings a certain arrogance to his messages. When I asked Grenwinae to warn Hawk who was flying too low over a very busy road outside our house, Hawks’ reply was: “There are Hawks, and Hawk Food.” With Hawk there is not much compromise. Hawks knows what it wants, and takes it.


Rabbit sign

After asking for Rabbits help, later that evening we headed down into the forest to do the Wolf Moon Ceremony and thank Owl for it’s last gift. Heading down the hill, Rabbit streaked in front of us!

Going into work yesterday, Rabbit streaked across the road at full speed.

Although I’ve seen rabbits many times at our other, surburban house, this is the first time I’ve sighted rabbits near the house (not counting the pair of rabbits that Grenwinae sighted himself months back in our front yard). Rabbit’s recent appearance is encouraging me to keep up on my deadline – pace myself but keep going at a fast clip. It’s necessary I know to keep going even though some days my energy level is very low.

Request to Barred Owl

Image of barred owl.

I need Barred Owl’s help today ….

~~ to be patient and wait for the right moment to strike;

~~ remember to take time before speaking;

~~ to be appealing, diplomatic and pleasant to others;

~~ look for cooperation, rather then competition;

~~ see what is hidden and concealed by others;

~~ use the inner vision and intuitive side of understanding others;

~~ some things are not to be shared. Choose wisely;

~~ when ready, go without hesitation, to strike the target with accuracy.

(image from Missouri Dept of Conservation, read more about Barred Owl there!)


Your quite garralous, Barred Owl! Thank you for your assistance in making a new friend.

Bald Eagle has my back

In my area, Bald Eagles winter and can be seen in certain areas (called Eagle Watches). Years back I saw some at a state park dam where they would dive for fish coming down off the causeway. However, I’ve never seen one casually and unexpectedly.

Driving into town to get a load of hay for the horses, I saw one up high in a tree on the left side of the road! He had his back to me and when I turned the car around so Grenwinae could get a cell phone pic, Bald Eagle flew off.

I wondered what it could mean. We were going to look at a possible rental house, which would involve moving sooner than we expected. I thought at first perhaps Bald Eagle was telling me it would turn out – a blessing but as it turned out, the house did not work. I decided against it; the woman/owner struck me as something being off – I tried to tune into Owl nature of seeing the unseen.

The Bald Eagle is only one of the many raptors that have been showing themselves to me of late. While I don’t feel the Bald Eagle is one of my Spirit Guides, Bald Eagle may have shown its presence to me for a message. I need to contemplate Bald Eagle’s recent appearance and I believe it has a wider view.

You may know that the Bald Eagle as the National Bird is protected and only Native Americans can possess their feathers due to religious reasons. Lots of blog entries could be written about the power of the Bald Eagle as Bald Eagle has long been a symbol of power and transformation.


Also seen on this trip was a Red Tailed Hawk, held immobile in a thermal. Since we made no real change on moving to a new rental, I’ve decided that the Hawks are principally messengers for the day.

Hoooo visited me today?

Things seem to be heating up. After asking for a dream message from Owl and not receiving one, I was a bit dis-spirited this morning. Within one hour of being at work, I got a call about a barn owl that had been injured in a barbed wire fence. Oddly, enough the owl was very calm when the lady’s husband removed him and put him in a box for transport to us.

Luckily, he just got a few dissoluble stitches for his injured wing and was given back to the client for release at her farm.


Seeing Owl in person was more amazing then I can write!


Size of a claw that can break a woodchucks’ neck:


Testing wings 1-2….


Messenger Hawk

So much has happened over the last few days that I want to get it down, though it’s evening and I’m pretty tired from a roundtrip from Missouri to Oklahoma.

I had returned to my dentist in Oklahoma to finish some dental work that had been started prior to my quick fall move to Missouri. I left Grenwinae’s office, actually pulling out of the parking lot when I saw two crows fly across, harrying a hawk (most likely a Red Tail Hawk).

This isn’t too unusual as I’ve also seen smaller birds harry a hawk or a crow to get them away from a nesting area. However, with my awareness that I was beginning a trip and that I’ve recently been opening myself up to bird magic, I wondered what it portended.

It’s pretty common to see Red Tailed Hawks on the interstates because they like to hunt the open fields. I think they like also the ditches formed by roadwork on either side where mice and other prey travel. This drive down to Oklahoma I passed over 20 hawks! Hawks were everywhere: on telephone poles, fence posts, telephone wires, and trees. I even sighted two on the ground (most likely after pouncing on something).

Most of them were facing the direction I was going. They seemed a bit ruffled – trying to keep warm most likely. I think the warmer weather (it had warmed up by about 10 degrees) had brought them out in mass for hunting.

Interestingly enough, once I had crossed the state border, I also sighted (at different times) TWO, BLACK highway patrol cars. Thankfully, they had pulled over other people.

Ask… and Receive

There’s a certain time of doing a repetitive task in which your mind becomes blank. There is no conscious thought; only a receptive mind to whatever information is presented to it.


I was out mucking out the horse stalls (the process of removing horse poop, or horse “apples”, from pine shavings). Scoop shavings onto the tines of the fork, gently shake side to side for the good material to fall out, and then throw the poop into the muckbucket.

Not exactly brainwork but I like it: being in the barn, hearing the horses snort and crunch their hay, watching them enter and exit as they check out what I’m doing, brings me satisfaction of being with them and not having demands on my side as to expectations or desires.


Each of us has our own way of gaining insight: it might be visual, verbally, with sounds or with words, colors or images, etc… I’ve always received very clear sentences – though by clear I mean verbally understandable but which may take me time to process exactly as to the subtle undertone or symbology of the phrase. I’ve had this capacity even in the dreaming state – hearing a voice so clear that it will wake me up from a deep REM state.


It was dusk so I decided to ask Owl: why am I so sad?

After asking (still scooping) without any pre-determined ideas, I received this clear reply as if a voice had spoken in my ear: You are mourning the life you could have had.

Some explanation is needed for readers. Owl means the career life – no husband and no children – but a lot of passion for work in a career (that as ambitious as I was) where I would have moved up rather quickly.

In the past, I have railed about being a full-time mom and wife – a path I rather accidentally-on-purpose chose. I was bitter and angry about those lost opportunities where I could have been in charge of projects, having companionship through work, and seeing success that was applauded or praised by others. I don’t feel those emotions (i.e. angry, bitter, jealous) anymore as I’ve worked through to a better understanding of where my life was at the time I made certain decisions – both good and some I would slightly change for a better outcome (if we had do-overs).

However, I have been feeling a huge wave of sadness that has come out of nowhere, catching me off guard, and so strongly it has overpowered me.


I mean to discuss this with Grenwinae but I fell asleep by 7:30 p.m. and woke at 3 a.m. Poor guy, as I decided to wake him up and tell him about Owl’s message (I guess Owls are really night creatures after all…). He copes a lot better with these nighttime revelations then when we first married (when his snores would quite clearly show that he was no longer listening!). Either he has gotten softer with his snoring (nay) or maybe I just don’t wake him up as much as I used too….?

I had a good cry which I think was long overdue. While I can cry readily over something that is a serious loss, I quickly compartmentalize it so I can move forward and start functioning again. I did this when my father died suddenly of a heart attack when I was in my junior year of college.  The problem is this sort of coping works well short-term but it really bites you in the butt when you don’t drain out the internal, emotional build-up.

There needs to be time set aside for me to mourn and let go. The intensity of the real anger I felt way back then is truly gone. However, with returning to job hunt, regrets (“could have”) surface like old, threadbare ghosts. They have no real meaning anymore to my life today — they need to be exorcised and released, so I can move forward.

Not listening moment

The office I work for sees exotic animals. Before the weekend, a kwas brought in. She was in a pretty bad way and I’ve learned to start keeping my emotional distance in case the outcome is not a happy one.

Thankfully, however, the K recovered and went home with his owner on Saturday. During the checkout, the owner kept trying to draw out our conversation. I knew he was relieved that she recovered and wanted to show her off, but I was busy ending my day, and kept wondering when I could get back to “work.”

The K kept poking her paw through her carrier. He said this was her way of saying she wanted to play – and he brought her out. Another person in the waiting room got her photo taken with the K and talked some time with the owner about how unusual the K was etc…

Monday morning, driving to work, it hit me how stupid I had been! The K had been literally reaching out to me, trying to engage me while I had not been in the moment! This playful animal that had just survived a serious illness was enjoying life!

Duh! *face palm* I was not listening at all to what is happening around me but living in the future or the past.

The K is profiled in Animal Spirit Guides by Steven D. Farmer (p.205):

“Be calm and be aware of overreacting to others if someone criticizes you or says something that you don’t agree with” (unfortunately, there are some people in the office that can be hostile and overly critical in a non-professional manner).

“You may be required to take a leap of faith soon, so trust your instincts and when the opportunity presents appears, and if it feels right to your gut, go for it without hesitation or qualification.”

P.S. Because of the unusual nature of this animal, I’ve put its name in as a graphic so search engines can’t read it. I would prefer the location of whom and where I work to remain unnamed in the blog and this animal is so unusual a search would bring up the blog. Thanks for your understanding.